I was nominated a long, long, long time ago by Merlin over at Merlins Musings. This post (and the next couple) are long overdue but finally I am doing this. I love quotes so it is a very nice challenge.
I AM ALWAYS ALONE. BUT JUST NOW I WANT TO BE ALONE BY MYSELF.
Reaper Man by Terry Pratchett is one of my favorite books about The Discworld. DEATH is my favorite character of all the books. He is wise and emo. Pretty much.
To always be alone doesn’t necessary mean that you are physically alone. I always say that I am alone even in a crowd of people. It’s accurate most of the time. I haven’t chosen to be alone, it just happens to be that way. I don’t feel like I belong anywhere and that makes one feel lonely. You can feel lonely even when you are with someone. I do sometimes even though I have a family who loves me unconditionally. Still, some days I feel lonely because they have something I don’t have being mentally ill and non-working; friends, co workers and activities. No, I don’t feel sorry for myself, in a way I have chosen the life I live now. I am hindered by my anxiety but it is no reason to isolate myself of course. I do it anyway because it is damn hard to walk out through the door when I am in a depression. It’s easier to stay at home, being a coward. Back to DEATH though; I am alone and I am lonely [sometimes] but I haven’t always chosen to be. Other times I am alone on my on volition. I need to be alone to function. It might seem strange maybe wanting to be alone when I am alone as much as I am already. Still, the need for loneliness is strong. It’s needed. Even DEATH knows that, and live by it, and maybe that’s why I love him so much; I can relate.