That’s pretty much how it is. I am struggling to get back after my short depression in April and beginning of May but it is hard. I knew it would be like this but it is frustrating. I want to be back to normal again, preferably yesterday if I could decide. I can’t so I better just be patient and work slowly to catch up.
I have more or less dropped every anime I watched by now. I know I wrote it in an earlier post too, that all I watched was Magical Girl Site but, not even that anime is on my watch list anymore. Nothing is. I feel a bit of a failure actually, not being able to keep up with at least one show is kind of bad. Sure, I got ill for a little while and dropped more or less my whole life down a hole but one show shouldn’t be too hard to maintain. And now I can’t muster the strength to pick it up and finish my project. It sucks. Royally even.
As for manga then. Well, I buy them. And read them. I have read more manga than I have watched anime at least. It’s relaxing and somehow I have the ability to concentrate even though it shouldn’t be possible. Or so they say, when you are depressed you normally can’t. Well, reading manga is a good way to run away from the darkness. And, as you know if you have read this blog for a while, buying manga eases my anxiety. I have been meaning to write reviews for the manga I read for my #TBR but that is still to happen. Over all has #MYNAME been completely neglected.
Maybe, most likely, part of my depression is a part of me going all in when I started this blog. Looking back it is easy to see how I was in a high, writing all those posts, putting my whole soul into this and not rest from it at all. Nothing of what I have written here (except one post) has been pre-posted. I never schedule anything. I write on an impulse and just throw it out there, often raw. I should probably change my strategy a little bit but it is hard to get an old dog to change.
Well, if I would say anything about the future of this blog then. Who the hell am I trying to fool? I will always swing in the chandelier, going on a rollercoaster. There will still be episodes of twenty posts a week and three posts the next. I can’t predict anything really so plans are not something I should even think about. People tell me pretty often, routines are a good thing. Yeah, I have tried those. It’s a fancy word, routine, I think about it sometimes. It’s more like I associate it with Yuri Plisetsky than with me and my life. So, expect no order at all for the next eternity.
I had planned on writing about my digital manga haul in this post. I guess I’ll do that in the next one instead.