I am not working. I am not socializing other than through the internet. I walk outside without make up (something I have never used anyway but still). I don’t care too much about how I dress. I prefer ready made meals before cooking if I just was given the chance (which is hard when you are not alone in your family. Others have demands on healthy, nutritious food). I only clean if I am gonna have visitors or when I get extremely nervous. I have social anxiety and meeting new people make me blush and get fidgety and stutter, or be very quiet. If I play online I would not play as myself, I would make a character as far from myself as possible….
Who am I?
There really is only one that fits that description. I love Recovery of an MMO Junkie to bits and a lot has to do with Morioka. There was so much in her that is in me too. I can identify myself in her down to the rolling of the carpet. She is a mature woman who has worked hard, devoting herself to her job without really getting too much from it. Always helped if help was wanted. I used to be like that. I was always the one they called if they needed someone to do overtime. “You can come in, right?”, “You can stay a little longer.” “Why don’t you do this, you are so dependable.”, “You are so reliable.” The list goes on, but still despite all the hard work it never paid off. All it did was drive me into a wall. So, I finally quit and ended up in front of my TV and playstation 2. Day and night. Not online since it wasn’t an option. I made a few more tries but I work too hard and am too loyal so here I am now, living my life on the internet. (it sounds harsh and it might not be as bad as it sounds but it is close.)
Morioka and me, if it were in real life we would probably pass each other on the street and not notice each other. We would end up in the same online game and not belong to the same guild because there can only be one of us in each guild. We would not work at the same department in the company at the same time because she would probably be my replacement or I hers. I just wish there was a Sakurai for me out there, like Sakurai is there for her.