So, there are eyes. Lots and lots of eyes. And a penguin. I am not sure why there is a penguin but he is cool. He lays around on the floor watching TV or floating around in the tub when he’s not eating or chilling in his fridge. Also, everyone is fucked up. Everyone.
Oh, I’m talking about Neon Genesis Evangelion. I just saw the last episode and I am, not confused maybe but it feels like I am high on mushrooms. I have never been high on mushrooms but I was once on the hunt for toxic mushrooms (that is a whole other story that I am never again will mention). Anyway, those two/four episodes were a wild trip.
I am not sure I needed those extra endings of episode 25 and 26. I liked the original ending where you aren’t really sure what went down. It gave the show a sort of (even more) surreal feeling. You get that Shinji is crazy. He has been suffering through out the whole anime. He is damaged by the fact that he was left alone after his mother died. His father neglects him and only calls for him because he needs him. He wants to be seen and heard. He is afraid of being abandoned again. I understand it and I feel for him. Of all the people in this anime I feel the most for Shinji.
One person I don’t feel for is Asuka. It’s the opposite. Shinji tries to strangle her at the end and I find myself cheering him on. I want to see him pop her eyes out with his shear force. It ends in him breaking down and crying instead but hey, he at least tried. Asuka is horrible through out the anime. She screams and yells and is unpleasant as a human being. It’s all about her and how she is the best. And when she isn’t she breaks down. I get it, she is damaged to with a mother who hung herself and a father remarrying and stuff. She hurts everyone around her, especially Shinji, every chance she gets. I take it that is some sort of mechanism to get people to stay away. It’s a very convenient way to not be hurt when people leave you if you don’t have any people close to you to begin with. She is still a horrible person and I can’t sympathize with her, no matter how much try.
Rei is a machine. Well, she is a product of Shinji’s dad actually. (Shinji’s dad is by the way a slut, but that’s not really relevant. Or maybe it is but it’s not totally clear. All I know is that mother and daughter Akagi both fucked him. Well, just a little side track.) Not so much a machine as a artificial human or something like that. Made by Lilith and Shinji’s mother. In the beginning I disliked her very much because Shinji’s dad seemed to enjoy spending time with her so much but now I get it (like now now when I write this. God, I feel a tad stupid. Hehe.) He of course sees Shinji’s mom in Rei all the time. He is by the way only waiting for the end to come so he can revive Yui, Shinji’s mom. I am not really sure about how that would happen. Maybe they say something about it and I don’t get it.
There are a lot of stuff I don’t get. The first 20 episodes is basically about angels (not in the sense of beautiful beings with wings. No, they are squared or round or giant eyes or something else strange) attacking the earth and Rei, Shinji and Asuka defeating them in their Eva’s. There is also a secret society plotting some secret plan in a secret location. A lot of secret stuff going on. Then everything get’s weird and mushroomy. A lot of stuff happens inside people’s heads. In the end it’s about letting the world go under and restart humanity. I think? I have no idea, I just know that it is trippin’. I also know that Shinji is deciding. If you are watching the original episode 26 they are saying that he is deciding for his, and only his, world. But if you watch the other end it seems more like he is deciding for the whole humanity. I can’t get it to match up. Again, I had preferred the original ending only.
I might be wrong in everything I am writing here but this is how I understood it. I am gonna rewatch it because 1. there are eyes. 2. there is a penguin (yes, penguins might be my spirit animal. and 3. I want to see if I understand and perceive the anime differently.