Anxiety relief – AKA manga shopping

So, I have had a shitty day. Last night I woke up with the cough from hell. I literally puked, that’s how much I coughed. After an hour I couldn’t stay in bed any longer (that was also when I had to run to the bathroom and rendez-vouz with the gods of the white bowl). I made myself some hot water with honey and lemon juice and decked out in the sofa instead. If my memory doesn’t completely have given up on me I think I watched the first episode of Blend S. There was some creepy manager and a creepy, sadistic girl and some other girls and another guy. Or something. Hey, my brain had more or less lost half of it’s braincells after that horrible cough attacks.

I have a friend. She is somewhat of a hippie type. The nurturing, caring, worrying kind of hippie who is convinced of a whole lot of strange things. At one point she stoped using plastic trays because of some shit she heard. She stoped using schampoo and started to wash her hair with bicarbonate instead. She also used it as a deodorant because regular deodorant apparently is dangerous. Anyway, I love her to bits and she is good to have at times like this because she is filled with all sorts of wisdom only the ancient witches and everyone who is a pagan knows. So she resolutely told me: “Lina, what you need is to chop an onion in big pieces and then boil some water and pour over it. Put it under your bed and the go lay down on top of it.” I probably looked like a stupid sheep because she chuckled when she continued: “Obviously not on top of the bowl. Silly girl. On top of the bed. Jeez, what kind of girlfriend do I have.” In the background her husband shouted something at her. Something about a threesome if I was her girlfriend. I don’t know, my brain was crackling and my stomach had a soreness.


I obeyed my fluffy girlfriend and went to bed with my onion in a bowl of boiling water, closed the door and the window and laid down to sleep again. I have no idea if that shit actually had anything to do with it or if it was just playing tricks with my mind but I actually didn’t cough more that night. I did smell like a fucking onion the day after but rather that then puking my lungs out.

This wasn’t at all what I was gonna talk about though. This whole ordeal gave me a rather heavy anxiety. I do suffer from anxiety from time to time and the night before I woke up from heavy chest pains. Probably a panic attack but sometimes I have a hard time knowing if it is or if I am actually having a real heart attack. Anyway, that’s the MO of a panic attack I guess. So, that together with last nights ordeal has put me in a constant state of anxiety today. I have had my ways of coping before. Less fortunate way, like hurting myself or overeating. I am not saying this is a good way either but at least there is a positive outcome to it, as long as I can afford it. What you wonder? I bought myself some new manga today. It always feels nice to click that buy button and see the transaction go through. I did it right before bedtime too so maybe I can get a good nights rest tonight without anxiety and nightmares, and sudden wake ups with chest pains killing me.

17 thoughts on “Anxiety relief – AKA manga shopping

    1. I have already read it online and I absolutely love it, so when I found it at Book depository I just had to buy it. Owning the manga you love is the best feeling in the world I think. Well, I love books in general. That feeling when you can just touch them. Such a pleasant feeling.

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  1. I have heard of sleeping with garlic, to keep vampires away, but never with an onion.

    New manga is a good way of picking up your mood. The other day I bought some volumes of Tsurezure Children on comixology. It’s a cute series that always puts a smile on my face.

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  2. “Rendez-vous with the Gods of the white bowl” that was definitely one of the funniest lines I have read in a while πŸ˜‚ Sorry to hear that you haven’t been feeling well, but glad to read you are doing at least somewhat better.
    Anxiety can seriously be a burden ( I have my own attacks from time to time as well), but this is a good idea to help you cope with it. Hope the manga you bought are fun to read, and will hopefully keep the panic attacks away for a while 😊

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    1. 😎 I have always avid reader and when I was little I read constantly (not manga then but regular books and comic books. Still do but manga has taken over more and more.) I also write a lot. I feel that those two things help me a lot to cope with my anxiety. That and watch anime, preferably violent, dark anime. I’m sorry to hear you have your own attacks as well. Anxiety truly sucks.

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  3. That is for sure: it really sucks and can definitely do some horrible things. Luckily though, knowing what is, and what it can do, I am able to handle it better than in the past. And blogging/writing has helped me a lot as well I have found.
    Dark and violent anime huh? I like the sound of that: I’m a huge fan of those as well: awesome! Looking forward to maybe some reviews on those from you πŸ˜€

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    1. Haha, I suck at reviews but I’m gonna do my best. Still figuring out how to best review without spoiling everything. But one day I’ll get there. Hopefully. Or I’ll just ramble on. Ramble’s good too, right?

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      1. Haha: rambling is always good πŸ˜€ And all I can say is: be confident. I have just started following your blog, but it looks seriously cool. So: in my opinion, nothing to worry about. As my blog pretty much only deals with (spoiler free) reviews, if you ever need any help, feel free to ask (not that I consider myself an expert in any way mind you πŸ˜‰).

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      2. Why thank you dear sir. 😊 Be sure to know that I will take up on that offer when in need. 😎 Btw, I like your reviews, especially because they are spoiler free. It’s so hard to read proper reviews without spoiler. It’s a shame really because I like to get a hint of what the anime is about before I watch it. But then again I also like to throw myself into anything with my eyes blindfolded and my fingers crossed that I will fly and not fall to a certain, well death is too harsh but, concussion and broken bones, and bruises on the ground. πŸ™ˆ

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      3. Thank you, that’s nice to hear (erm that you like my reviews not the death and broken bones stuff lolπŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚). But true, reviews without spoilers these days are hard to come by (I even had a few reviews spoil a movie/anime for me, when the reviewer didn’t mention there would be spoilers…uggghhhhh πŸ™). But yeah, it is nice to at least get a little bit of an idea of what something is about before you start watching it 😊

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      4. Yeah, that review stuff. It’s enough to read a paragraph or two and then you realise that there is a huge spoiler ahead. I don’t even think the person who writes the review is aware of the fact that it is a spoiler. I read one today that revealed what’s coming ten years in the future, which tells exactly all that’s gonna happen. So, even if they didn’t tell the ending you could figure it out anyway. People. *sigh*

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      5. Haha: that really sounds horrible. I really try to tell as little as possible, but I do agree it’s sometimes different for people. Some might consider something a spoiler, that someone else doesn’t. So it’s a bit of a fine line to walk so to speak πŸ˜€

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